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Deathbed by Relient K


I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can’t believe this is the end

But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I’ll be home

The year is 1941
I was eight years old and far, far too young
To know that the stories of battles and glory
Was a tale a kind mother made up for a son

You see, Dad was a traveling preacher
Teaching the words of the teacher
Mother had sworn he went off to the war
And died there with honor, somewhere on a beach there

But he left once to never return
Which taught me that I should unlearn
Whatever I thought a father should be
I abandoned that thought like he abandoned me

By ’47, I was fourteen
I’d acquired a taste for liquor and nicotine
I smoked until I threw up, yet I still lit ’em up
For thirty more years, like a machine

So right there you have it
That one filthy habit
Is what got me where I am today

I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can’t believe this is the end

I can hear the sad memories
Still haunting me
So many things I’d do again

But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I’ll be home

Got married on my twenty-first
Eight months before my wife would give birth
It’s easier to be sure you love someone
When a father inquires with the barrel of a gun

The union was far from harmonious
No two people could’ve been more alone than us
The years would go by and she’d love someone else
And I’d realized I hadn’t been loved yet myself

From there it’s your typical spiel
Yeah, if life was a highway, I was drunk at the wheel
I was helpin’ the loose ends all fall apart
Yeah, I swear I was destined to fail, and fail from the start

I bowled about six times a week
A bottle of Beam kept the memories from me
Our marriage had taken a 7–10 split
And along with my pride, the ex-wife took the kids

I was so scared of Jesus but he sought me out
Like the cancer in my lungs it’s killing me now
And I’ve given up hope on the days I have left
But I cling to the hope of my life in the next

Then Jesus showed up, said, “Before we go
I thought that we might reminisce
See, one night in your life, when you turned out the lights
You asked for and prayed for my forgiveness

“You cried wolf; the tears they soaked your fur
The blood dripped from your fangs
You said, ‘What have I done?’
You loved that lamb with every sinful bone
And there you wept alone
Your heart was so contrite

“You said, ‘Jesus, please forgive me of my crimes
Sanctify this withered heart of mine
Stay with me until my life is through
And on that day, please take me home with you’ “

I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can’t believe this is the end

I can hear you whisper to me
“It’s time to leave
You’ll never be lonely again”

But this was my deathbed
I died there alone
When I closed my eyes tonight
You carried me home

I am the way
Follow me and take my hand

And I am the truth
Embrace me and you’ll understand

And I am the light?
And for me you’ll live again

For I am love
I am love

I am love

So its time for one of those updates you all have not been looking forward to :p so i haven`t been up to much just playing nintendo wii which i had to camp out for 12 hours ya it got flipin cold i think it got below 20 at one point but it was worth it then this tuesday i got my divers license so yup im pretty happy about it and then yesterday i went to Emily`s uncles and ate and then after that went to big lots and got a game for 5 bucks and then went to her house it eat again yup to thanksgiving meals in one day and today i haven`t done to much my mom and dad went to got on there cruise and i get to stay how and take care of the dogs so yup that my story im gonna go make food and play some more wii later

A.j.

The worst post ever

Ok well from the looks of the only 2 comments no one uses xanga anymore i guess its so last year as the prep girls say so like orange becoming the new pick i guess myspace is the new xanga but ya im going to update anyway why you ask because i fear change so heres whats new saturday im going to drivers ed i know im as shocked as everyone just know that as long as you don`t drive with me you will most likely live other then that my car is all most fixed and me and emily have almost been dating for a year and with that i end this the worst post ever

A.J.

I lie here paralytic
Inside this soul
Screaming to you till
My throat is numb

I wanna break, out I need a way out
I don't believe that it's gotta be this way
The worst, is the waiting
In this room I'm suffocating

Feel your presence
Filling up my lungs with oxygen
I take you in
I've died

(Chorus)
Rebirthing now
I wanna live for love
Wanna live for you and me
(Breathe for the first time now
I come alive somehow)
Rebirthing now
I wanna live my life
wanna give you everything
(Breathe for the first time now
I come alive somehow)

Right now
Right now

I lie here lifeless
In this cocoon
Shedding my skin cause
I'm ready to

I wanna break out, I found a way out
I don't believe that it's gotta be this way
The worst, is the waiting
In this room I'm suffocating

Feel your presence
Filling up my lungs with oxygen
I take you in
I've died

(Chorus)

Tell me when I'm gonna live again
Tell me when I'm gonna breathe you in
Tell me when I'm gonna feel inside
Tell me when I'm gonna feel alive

Tell me when I'm gonna live again
Tell me when this fear will end
Tell me when I'm gonna feel inside
Tell me when I'm gonna feel alive

(Chorus)

Right Now (I come alive somehow)
Right Now (I come alive somehow)

Hey how is everyone im do great went to youth its was amazing i really needed it but ya really haven`t been doing much just hanging out with Emily does anyone even use this anymore

 

White & Nerdy

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Parody of “Ridin'” by Chamillionaire

New lyrics by Al Yankovic

They see me mowin’

My front lawn

I know they’re all thinking I’m so white and nerdy

Think I’m just too white and nerdy

Think I’m just too white and nerdy

Can’t you see I’m white and nerdy?

Look at me, I’m white and nerdy

I wanna roll with

The gangstas

But so far they all think I’m too white and nerdy

Think I’m just too white and nerdy

Think I’m just too white and nerdy

I’m just too white and nerdy.

Really really white and nerdy.

First in my class here at MIT

Got skills, I’m a champion at D&D

MC Escher – that’s my favorite MC

Keep your 40, I’ll just have an Earl Grey tea

My rims never spin, to the contrary

You’ll find that they’re quite stationary

All of my action figures are cherry

Steven Hawking’s in my library

My MySpace page is all totally pimped out

Got people beggin’ for my top eight spaces

Yo, I know pi to a thousand places

Ain’t got no grills but I still wear braces

I order all of my sandwiches with mayonnaise

I’m a whiz at Minesweeper – I could play for days

Once you see my sweet moves you’re gonna stay amazed

My fingers’ movin’ so fast I’ll set the place ablaze

There’s no killer app I haven’t run

At Pascal, well I’m number one

Do vector calculus just for fun

I ain’t got a gat but I got a soldering gun

Happy Days is my favorite theme song

I could sure kick your butt in a game of ping pong

I’ll ace any trivia quiz you bring on

I’m fluent in JavaScript as well as Klingon

They see me roll on

My Segway

I know in my heart they think I’m white and nerdy

Think I’m just too white and nerdy

Think I’m just too white and nerdy

Can’t you see I’m white and nerdy

Look at me, I’m white and nerdy

I’d like to roll with

The gangstas

Although it’s apparent I’m too white and nerdy

Think I’m just too white and nerdy

Think I’m just too white and nerdy

I’m just too white and nerdy

How’d I get so white and nerdy

I’ve been browsin’, inspectin’

X-Men comics, you know I collect ’em

The pens in my pocket, I must protect ’em

My ergonomic keyboard never leaves me bored

Shopping online for deals on some writable media

I edit Wikipedia

I memorized Holy Grail really well

I can recite it right now and have you ROTFLOL

I got a business doing websites

When my friends need some code, who do they call?

I do HTML for ’em all

Even made a homepage for my dog

Yo, I got myself a fanny pack

They were havin’ a sale down at The Gap

Spend my nights with a roll of bubble wrap

Pop, pop, hope no one sees me

Gettin’ freaky

I’m nerdy in the extreme

And whiter than sour cream

I was in AV Club and Glee Club and even the Chess Team

Only question I

Ever thought was hard

Was do I like Kirk

Or do I like Picard

Spend every weekend at the Renaissance Fair

Got my name on my underwear

They see me strollin’

They laughin’

And rollin’ their eyes ’cause I’m so white and nerdy

Just because I’m white and nerdy

Just because I’m white and nerdy

All because I’m white and nerdy

Holy cow, I’m white and nerdy

I wanna bowl with

The gangstas

But, oh well, it’s obvious I’m white and nerdy

Think I’m just too white and nerdy

Think I’m just too white and nerdy

I’m just too white and nerdy

Look at me, I’m white and nerdy

Sing Me To Sleep

Something keeps me awake, something outside is stirring

Through the dark and over the grass

The rabbits and snakes are concurring

They sing in the soil and bones rattle loud

They cry out as this they do see

Someone in those walls is suffering proud

For you are worth every ache within me

I don’t hear music, don’t hear anything

I see dirt, I see cement

What a troubled world it is when you’re outside arms length

It pulls out it’s teeth in dry irreverence

Come and find me on this floor

I am only a half, truth be told

Take away all the distance and say:

“my beloved, I’m here, and now you are whole”

If I turn and see your eyes in the dark I will know the blue in an instant

Never have they gone so far

Never has your face been distant

My life I will give you like a verse and a ring

I will be your only one

And what you ask of me will be yours until all is said and done

Your heart is a song that I hear Jesus sing

It comes over oceans to me

And the notes spell out messages in vibrant streams

And what’s written you show only me

But if you can’t close up all the gaps tonight

Put me to bed in your way

You see right through everything I am

For you my insides are displayed

Sing me to sleep my beautiful one

I will love only you for all time

Sing me to sleep my only one

With promises that you are all mine

Be still my heart, I hear your back cracking

It sounds like music to me

I see your face and I can hardly breath

It looks just like a song to me

Hey i guess its time for an update not much going on i just got Wichita cause Emily`s cousin got married and Emily wanted me to go so ya since im wiped you all now how that went so i went down with her and her mom and we went shoping and then went back to the hotel and the next day was her cousins wedding and then after we went to her aunt and uncles to swim and sunday we went swiming in derby they have an awesome water park but ya there was alot of people and i got sun burn really flipin bad it sucks but i still had alot of fun but ya thats about all thats going on so im gonna stop taking up everyones time later

Showbread – Pachycephalosaurus

Good God, where does it end?

You have been waiting in line

To have a phone chord or a cable fed right down your throat

Don’t struggle or it will bend and be a waste of time

To drain the depth of you from somewhere there

You’ll only choke

What seems to be the problem? We can’t dig up anything

Only dust and spit, and some pictures of you

You’re choking on the wires and still trying to sing

It seems that no one could ever love you

As much as you do

Hey misses hopeless, the world will catch up

With your intrepidness, I hope you know this

There’s no one like you, it’s so oppressive

You can even spell your own name, how impressive

I want what I see, I want something shiny

I want the one who stand in front of the biggest crowds

If we are to be, there will be more eyes on me

There will be more for everyone to talk about

It all leads to me, independent and free

It all comes back to who will say what I want them to say

Not complicated, keep it simply stated

There’s only so much that I can understand

Before it’s all wasting away

But don’t forget I can have what I want

And I want to be everything and everywhere

Say I’m smart, say my skirt is so short

Say I’m different, say I’m one of a kind

If I’m on TV maybe you will love me

There’s not another reason I can find

And if you only reject, there’s still these tubes in my neck

There’s still cigarettes and four letter words

And I’m sure that you’ll pick such a plain jane

To think the world goes on without me just seems so absurd

Underoath: Writing on the Walls

Hey everyone thought it was time for an update im not going to cornerstone now cause i don`t have the money luckly alyssa got the tickets sold but ya today me and Emily went out and helped with the fireworks stand it was fun we priced things but ya next week alden me dylan and alot of other ppl are having a lan party which is cool cause we haven`t had one in a long time so yup thats all i`ve got fo an update hope you hate it 🙂

ps new song by UnderOath

A.j.

Writing on the Walls

Maybe we,Why don’t we sit right here for
half an hour
We’ll speak of what a waste I am and how
we missed your beat again

I swear we need to find some comfort in
this run down place
To bridge the gap of this conscious state
that we live in
I’m short on time

How come you try and fit the shape of
what they tell you
But mostly what they show you
That brings us home
I pray for you to move on

At this rate we can’t keep up but I sure
can’t just sit still
I’m taking back all the things I said
Keep me filled in, I swear I’ll come

We walk alone back home

You’re almost gone and I’m ok to give you
time to be afraid
I still see your shadow but never your face
again
I remember your presence

I hope to God you come down
I hope to God you can feel this now
I know there must be some way out of
here and all of them will be waiting there

Hey everyone not to much going on here just the normal sorry i haven`t updated in a long time im sure no one reads this anyway but thats ok me and Emily are doing great we have been dateing for almost 7 months other then that my dad started on my car again so i should have it soon well im gonna go just was on messing with my layout and thought i would post tell me what you think about the layout later

A.J.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:

1 I died from natural causes:
2 I kissed you:
3 I lived in your neighborhood :
4 I started smoking:
5 I stole something:
6 I was hospitalized:
7 I ran away from home:
8 I got into a fight and you weren’t there?

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

9 Personality:
10 Eyes:
11 Hair:
12 Looks:

WOULD YOU:

13 Be my friend?:
14 Keep a secret if I told you one?:
15 Hold my hand?
16 Take a bullet for me?
17 Keep in touch?:
18 Try and solve my problems?:
19 Love me?:
20 Date me?:
 21 kiss me?:
22 makeout with me?:

HAVE YOU EVER:

23 Lied to make me feel better?:
24 Wanted to kiss me?:
25 Wanted to kill me?:
26 Broke my heart?:
27 Kept something important from me?:
28 Thought I was unbearably annoying?

AND MORE:

29. Who are you?
30. Are we friends?
31. When and how did we meet?
32. Describe me in one (or more) word(s):
33. What was your first impression?
34. Do you still think that way about me now?
35. What reminds you of me?
36. If you could give me anything what would it be?
37. How well do you know me?
38. When’s the last time you saw me?
39. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn’t?
40. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you?

Step one you say we need to talk

He walks you say sit down it’s just a talk

He smiles politely back at you

You stare politely right on through

Some sort of window to your right

As he goes left and you stay right

Between the lines of fear and blame

And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best

Cause after all you do know best

Try to slip past his defense

Without granting innocence

Lay down a list of what is wrong

The things you’ve told him all along

And pray to God he hears you

And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice

You lower yours and grant him one last choice

Drive until you lose the road

Or break with the ones you’ve followed

He will do one of two things

He will admit to everything

Or he’ll say he’s just not the same

And you’ll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life